Throw away the cake

I can't believe it's been a whole month since I blogged. Let's say this month has been... ok. As far as weight loss goes, it looks pretty normal. I started at 193, and ended at 186. 7 lbs is a pretty solid weight loss for a month. Why was it just ok then? Because looking back at what I ate does not make me proud. There were a lot of parties this month, and being with my friends and family has been a much needed boost for my spirit. But I didn't do what I should have to stop myself from eating SO. MUCH. SUGAR. Holy cow, how could I possibly have lost 7 lbs? But more importantly, how much better can I do next month?

Last week was my daughter's 2nd birthday. She LOVES butterflies. At least the idea of them, I don't think she's ever seen a real one. Anyway, I was feeling crafty, so I made her a little cake in the shape of a butterfly. It was seriously adorable. I used box cake and can icing (which I think it disgusting on its own) so it wasn't anything too fancy, but I was proud of my messy decorating job. And there were cupcakes too because I made one layer of chocolate and one layer of funfetti so there were extras of both cake mixes. Then I invited a few people over for pizza and cake on her birthday, and suddenly realized that "few" was actually more than 20. So I made mint sugar cookies in the shape of butterflies. No icing needed, these sugar cookies are that good. The party was a success. And there was so much cake left over. And unfortunately I discovered that the canned icing wasn't as gross when it was on the cake, and I really quite liked it. I should have done it as soon as everyone left, but I waited two days before I threw away the rest of the cake. When cake is always there, right in front of you whether you are hungry or not, way too easy to just grab a bite, you eat more than you should. Not as much as I would have a year ago, but more than I should. I did feel pretty proud of myself for throwing out almost a whole butterfly wing, even though it really made me sad to put my creation in the trash.

That's just the worst of it. There were also two baby showers, a Nauvoo party complete with a whole batch of rolo cookies, cousin's dinner with home made cinnamon rolls, General Conference donuts, and an extended family party at the Pizza Pie Cafe. I felt really awful Saturday night, and decided I better try to detox. I found a recipe for apple cinnamon detox water on this blog. I figured, I like apples and cinnamon, I'll try it out. Yesterday I mostly only drank this and didn't eat until dinner. I wasn't planning on eating dinner, but I was starving. And by the end of the day I was kind of sick of the taste. I think the idea of this 0 calorie drink is a good one, but I prefer normal water. The apples and cinnamon are supposed to last like a week in the fridge if you keep refilling the pitcher, so maybe I'll try it again today. But not on an empty stomach.